New Blogger in the House
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Where to begin? I
guess I will start with a personal introduction and some thoughts about what in
the world I was thinking when I decided to start this whole blogging thing.
I’m Courtney,
tomorrow is my birthday and I will be 31 years old. I am supremely happily
married now for 2 years and 3 months.
We have two
fur-babies; Felix and Sandy.
Felix is an adorable
and feisty male grey kitty cat. He is a rescue my sister-in-law found in a box
on the side of the road. He came to live with us and is now part of the family.
Sandy is a beautiful
and loveable 2lb Chiweenie (Chihuahua and Dachshund mix). She was a rescue of
sorts as well. She was a gift to me last year for my birthday.
I come from a large
family with 3 sister and 2 brothers and I grew up on the east coast of Florida.
We now live in east Texas. *Warning TMI ahead* When I was 17 I noticed that my
periods had stopped. I had not had one for around 3 or 4 months. My mother was
not one you could talk to about these things so I was very nervous to tell her
I thought something was wrong. She took me to her OB-GYN. I had never seen an
OB-GYN before so they had to do a normal check up on me, and ran some blood
tests. She came to the conclusion that she thought I had something called
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS).
As teenager I didn’t
quite know what that meant. As a woman my mother didn’t know what it meant. As
a doctor the OB-GYN was new to the syndrome as well. At that point in the
syndromes history there were very few things known about it. The only treatment
option that was given to me was birth control. Being a Catholic I was very
upset by this news. I mean, I wasn’t planning on becoming pregnant anytime
soon. I was still a virgin and was going to keep it that way until I was
married (at least at that point in my life). But, birth control was very much a
no-no in my religion. However it was explained to me that if needed for medical
reasons, and not for the prevention of pregnancy, it was perfectly ok.
I was prescribed a medication
to induce my period as well as a prescription for birth control. It worked for
the time being and I didn’t know any better to be worried about the future of
my fertility. I didn’t realize it then but that was the beginning of what would
be the hardest road I have yet to travel. I didn’t know it would cause so much
pain, doubt, shame, embarrassment, jealousy and so much more.
My husband and I have
been trying to conceive (TTC) now for 2 years and 2 months, both actively and
through inactivity. Through the course of this blog I will be going into detail
about our journey so far and the path that has yet to be traveled. I will be
open and honest with the hopes that this becomes therapeutic for me. This is
something that is very much out of my comfort zone. To be completely honest it
frightens me to death. However, my hope
for this blog is that I can reach others suffering with infertility, even if it
is just one person.
